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A new year and a new start!

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How often do you show concern to your love ones

People don't really express their inner feelings well and that includes me.

Things could be getting out of hand. 

It's getting worrisome day by day.

But there's nothing I can do.

我只想要一家人快快乐乐健健康康的过每一个新年

2012 better be a better year.

Awesomeness! 



Love her confidence! And not to forget the B.E.S.T!

It's definitely an up and down week for me. Many many things happened and it made me appreciate the people and the things around me more. Guilt was a word to describe my feeling few days back. Am so glad that everything's alright. 

Have been working a lot, to earn more money. Everything is just about the money. Call me money-minded and I don't mind. 

Back from another camp and suay is the word to describe. The most memorable one definitely. 

I don't mind receiving this as early birthday/christmas present. :)

This week is mugging week. Nope, I am not having my final exams or main exams. Only some tests which won't be assessed. 

I won't want to make any promises or whatsoever because I don't have the confidence of achieving it, like not retaking any of the modules, graduating with first class honour, though I really want to accomplish all those. 

One thing that I am afraid of, is someone mentioning, I thought she worked very hard for it, didn't she like studied almost everyday, why didn't she get better grades? I know, I wasn't born to be clever, I don't have an IQ of 140. The fact is at times no matter how hard I try or study, I just won't get good grades and I am serious. Sometimes, I do hate when people start saying that as long as you work hard enough, you will definitely end up with good grades. All these are said to comfort people and I strongly believed that those who said don't really mean it from the bottom of their heart because they themselves don't believe it. How hard is hard. Define effort. Define 100% effort. My 100% may differ from yours. So don't judge other people when they say the put in 100% effort but still end up with average grades. 

I always believe that luck plays a part too. 

I am not a Sones but her hair is really the bomb. This is the type of hairstyle I am looking for no matter how I cut it won't turn out like hers. Maybe I should get her wig. 

说实话，要适应你的生活方式真的很辛苦。

我感受到前所未有的压迫感及压力，让我点喘不过气。

但又能说什么。

I'm very used to the way I have lead my life for the past few years, spending most of the time alone at home. I can peacefully watch tv, sleep or even study anytime and anywhere in the house. I know it's very bad to say this but I wish you continue working. The rebellious side of me is coming out. The situation is like parents controlling the kids too much to the extent where kids want to run away from home. However, I am too old for this.

I need my own space. And I really do.

I really hope you understand. The stress I am having is enough for me to handle and the one you are giving is adding on to the load which is slowly killing me. 

But what can I do. 

Was looking through some very very old posts and was reminded of the past. Realised that we actually kept in close contact during 2008. Maybe it's reasonable since it was only a year after we graduated. Due to the different paths we chose, we had slowly drifted apart. 

Strangers or still friends? Half half? 

When people start asking me about you guys, I will stumble, can I still consider you guys as my bestest friends? It seems like I know a lot about you guys but I don't really know much. I have to admit, I am guilty of feeling this way. I could have taken the initiative to plan a meet up or something.

But one thing I know, we won't be treating each other as strangers when we bump into each other on the streets. The thing that I am afraid of would be the awkward silence  or the lack of topics between us if we were to really bump to each other.  

Honestly, I had always believe that our friendships will last long when we were in secondary school. Those times were the memories that I never never want to forget. Believe me, you guys still hold a place in my heart though we haven't met up for ages. Occasionally, I thought of you guys. But do I still hold a place in you guys' heart? 

His transformation. :)
All I am hoping for is a peaceful life. And maybe a bit of fortune luck.